Gosh golly gee and goody gum drops! Had a friend and her family pop by yesterday from the Gold Coast so that I could take em around Melbourne Uni and Trinity and Lygon St and Smith St and Brunswick St, then finally to a steak house on Johnston/son Street, very tasty, and very much needed seeing as I gave blood the day previous to yesterday, and was obviously in need of some meat and iron boost, yummy *big grin*. Hope she gets what she applied for in VTAC, and wish her all the best.
So as you may have guessed, I seem to have a headache, and I don't know which medicine to take because I don't know the cause of this headache, which will continue until it resolves itself, or I start to find myself experiencing symptoms that would help me find out what on earth it is. That said, I have come to several hypotheses which include optic stuff (cos everytime I start reading a book I get headache), muscular stuff (cos everytime I lie down and relax it gets better). I have ruled OUT bacteria or virus, since my pulse and countenance are all fine and I don't feel feverish, nor do I have a runny nose and a bit of a cough, so the cold (rhinovirus) is out as well. Hmmmm, fee fi fo fum, I smell the stench of either post blood giving symptoms (though I'm not sure what they are), or something to do with the food i've been having lately (though there's an even lower chance of that going on than anything else). So what the heck, I'll just sleep it off and see how I feel in the morning, if it doesn't get any better, I guess I'l have to make a few calls overseas and see what the diagnosis is.
So....what to talk about....guess this week's been relatively #$^&#$%^*, I mean, it's not like I got a lot done, and nor is it that I didn't do anything, guess it's just another one of those days where i'm stuck in the plains again....*sigh*. Though not too long ago, I was watching something that I felt would definitely move my heart somehow, but found that it didn't. After some thinking and meta-thinking, I find that to be kind of...well...sad. That said, I like, SO developed a crush on this girl at this cafe I was at while waiting for the real estate agent lady to come, likewise for another girl that I saw somewhere sometime this week, though I can't remember this one all too well...think it was during...ah yes. I saw this girl who looked VERY VERY much a lot like a girl who was very special to me *ask if you don't know* during a little visit to a suburb out in the middle of nowhere. OMG, my heart did pound, but of course, my mind regained control over my body and my spirit settled down after I came to the conclusion that I was once again being shallow and thinking of things that I ought not to be thinking of.
Ahhh...that wonderful little feeling called a crush...I will honestly say that I had not felt that for years, and was quite rejoiced by the fact that I did this week. Afterall, these kind of things will eventually lead me back to the light that I have sought after, and during that time, I have read and heard many beautiful words that I would like to someday myself be able to give to another. *sigh*..."It's the sweet trap of thought, to be stuck with a problem I cannot answer, I want to remain drunk in this state forever!" No idea why anyone would want to stay "drunk in this state", but I feel that it's appropriate to say that I am actually feeling quite free now, and can't say I've ever felt more carefree about...anything. Unfortunately, the impending tidal wave of study and assignments will be coming very shortly, and I shall have to divert my oh-so-ever busy mental faculties to the menial and laborious task of remembering and understanding biomedical...things.
Also heard today that, "Four years of high school, four years of college, four years of med school. By the time we graduate we're in our late 20s and we've never done anything except go to school and think about science. Time stops. We're socially retarded". Speaking of retarded, look at this!
Though not everyone's someone in the medical field, I'm wondering to how many people this will actually apply, and how much of this will actually become true for some of us. Do our dreams and hopes of what and where we want to be when we're all grown up affect our social lives that much? What percentage of the population does this affect? And are we, as a society, better or worse off for it, despite all the good that we can and will accomplish individually for the rest of society? We may advance in our science, and in our arts, and in our building and money-making skills, but do we regress a little every time we gain a bit more knowledge academically? Are we, the hard-working and give-up-lots-of-things students, trading away our sociality for someone or something else's sake? Bit of a rhetorical question there, but a good one to think about nonetheless, though it would be foolhardy to think that it doesn't at all, since everything in the universe is interconnected through some weird law of quantum physics which I seriously don't wanna know about...*bleh*
I mention this because I, and many others out there in this "SICK SAD WORLD" *Daria, whoo!*, may find ourselves unable to be the people that we want to be because of what we do, and what we hope to do. Some of us may find that in order to be the person that we want to be, that we must sometimes give up our dreams and hopes. That sometimes, in order for us to be happy, no matter how briefly, we may break our own moral and ethical code to get what we want, regardless of the consequences. It is at this stage, to know whether or not you are one of these kind of people, that I give you the MACH-IV test. *sorry, can't link this right now, will try to do so sometime later*
http://www.salon.com/books/it/1999/09/13/machtest/
This is a simple test that I have found useful during the...earlier years, to check and record my level of darkness with a sense of quantification. It will basically tell you whether or not you subscribe by Niccolò Machiavelli's philosophies of disregarding morality and ethics, and by how much. Hehe, nothing too scary though.
For instance, would someone, for the sake of their own happiness and well-being, destroy someone else's happiness and well-being, even though it is/was completely unintentional, and in fact, they feel REALLY REALLY REALLY bad about it? Is their sense of self-preservation and psychosocial health any greater than that of the other person? How can anyone ever compare one person's desire for happiness and well-being to another's? And yet, we find that this happens pretty much daily, and we find more and more that we can do very little about it, other than pray that we are not on the receiving side of this action.
So finally, we come to face to face with the two issues that I have thought about this week *apart from the hot girl/s I had a crush on, WHOO!*. Whether or not it's cool that we are now currently swapping out social intelligence with academic intelligence, how some people can develop both at the same time, including ways that we can destroy those people ;) *just kidding, hehe* and also, the justification, whether there is any or not, with putting someone else through pain and misery just so you could rise up through yours, no matter how unintentional or unexpected, and also whether or not there is a right or wrong with this issue. I shall therefore leave this here for you to think about, and leave you with this quote
"Even in the common affairs of life, in love, friendship, and marriage, how little security have we when we trust our happiness in the hands of others!" - Paul Aubuchon
5 comments:
oh, too deep, too deep.
a common dilemma, but one easily cured.
If you hang out with peers and spend all your time thinking science, you WILL be developing your own social norms and traditions with these peers. For all intents and purposes, they will be your peers, since you will be working with them. So in a sense, you aren't really undeveloped in the social sense, you are just making your own social environment.
If you move out and hang out with a different crowd, why then, just takes a while before you would develope the so called social intelligence, won't it? Its all just a different form of information, and if you are adept at integrating them into your life, like with science, i don't see how difficult it is to assimilate data from other walks of life. All it takes is a bit of empathy and observational skills.
IMHO the social intelligence vs academic intelligence is a false dichotomy, there is no limited "intelligence" to be allocated to either academic or social sectors in our head. If you can only take in information from books and not know how to act on them, you would fail in your profession anyway. So in learning how to deal with information and the learning process, we would have a life skill that would be also useful in other places other than academics.
Whoo, rant bombing other people's comment boxes. Its 1am and i have a mid sem tomorrow and i am slightly zonky right now.
Social norms are relative, as with most things. Your social behaviour makes you, you. When you're out in the "real world", people befriend you/accept you for you (which should - theoretically, including the way you behave and all your quirky ways). There are expected etiquettes which is all common sense, should have been taught/learnt from friends and family throughout your life (even through high school!).
Socially retarded came from the fact that your personality and interest didn't fit in with that of the "popular group". It doesn't mean you're socially retarded per se. It's in the mind. You find that you can't fit in with the popular people, and you feel isolated, start becoming withdrawn, reluctant to socialise, then because of your lack of experience in socialise, refuse to socialise even more - hence labelling yourself as "socially retarded" - you probably could carry out a whole conversation if given the right topic, but you just don't try - lack of self esteem!
Am I rambling?
I'll stop....
woohoo..i see you've promoted a lovely bunch to level 4 people...finally
me no comprende??
*puts on faux HK accent*
"My ENGLAND very bad ahh"
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